Colors

What do you think of this color palette?


Are the colors right for a vintage-inspired Spring wedding?

Eh?

On Losing My Best Friend

September has been one hell of a month.

In four short weeks I managed to wreck my car and lose my best friend.

The car can be fixed.

But the pain of losing someone so close to my heart cannot.

It's a long story and unfortunate in more ways than I can articulate. And the saddest part is, I'll never know the true reason why she chose to drop out. Friends for 20 years, you'd think I merit an explanation. But I'll never understand...

Because I was there for her wedding - as her maid of honor, standing by her side as she married the man she dated for many years. ON THE BEACH.

I was the one who put on a bridal shower - with no help from family or friends.

I was the one who shelled out money I did not have - just to see her smile.

If I had to quantify what I invested in her happiness....well, I won't do that for sake of my own sanity.

As I share my pitiful story with others I'm beginning to realize that if a friend isn't happy on account of your own happiness, are they a friend at all?

Nope. Not at all.

This little realization is the only thing bringing me peace right now.

I have nothing else to say on this subject.

List #1, revisited

It's been awhile since I've rambled about my planning progress (or lack thereof) - but I'm finally getting somewhere. This little list tells me so.


1. Find dress [DONE]
2. Figure out wedding colors. [Almost done...I think]
3. Registry. [Semi-registered at Crate and Barrel, the other TBD]
4. Wedding Web site. [Does Facebook Weddingbook count?]
5. Bachelorette party location. [Does writing inside these brackets count?]
6. DJ or band? [DONE!]


OK, so two out of five isn't bad. Is it?

So. Like.

I got my dress!

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't post photos nor tell you what it looks like because Mr. Fiancee is not allowed to see it.

But I will say my whole vision for the wedding has changed - because of the dress.

I see a 1920's inspired bridal wardrobe and vintage-style reception in my future.

Oh. yes.

Mushy love stuff.

Fiancee is out of town this week traveling for business.

Leaving lil 'ol me to fend for myself. (Ha!)

Seriously, though.

While he's out galavanting with co-workers at a national conference, I'm coming home to an empty house, making dinner for one and sleeping by myself.

In all my solitude, I can't help but wonder, "How did I ever do this alone?"

I've always been independent. Just ask my friends. They'll say, "She's the one with that 'I don't need no man' attitude."

I was the girl who cringed when another woman outed her co-dependence. Especially after a breakup or a big fight. "I just can't do anything without him," she'd say, all sad and pity-faced.

Disgusted, I'd think to myself, "That sorry waste of flesh. She's the reason women have struggled for equality all these years."

(Sad, I know.)

So I guess Karma's taking its turn with me. Because I've morphed into that person. Ugh.

(Thanks, Karma.)

To all the women out there, those I wished those horrible thoughts, my apologies.

Because it's like I'm walking around with one shoe, and at any minute, I'm going to fall and he won't be there to catch me.

I'm absolutely head over heels, madly in love. I never knew a love like this existed. I never knew I could miss him like this.

Fiancee will be home tomorrow. I can't wait to be in his arms, leaning in to kiss his amazingly-soft, scrumptious lips.

I can't wait.

My Sister

I'll be gaining a sister and a brother once Fiancee and I are married.

And I've gushed a bit about Brother. But now it's Sister's turn.

Soon you'll see some of the fabulous things she's worked up for me.

Like, my Theme Inspiration? Oh yeah, this girl has taken it to the next level.

It's amazing.

And I can't wait to show you.